Sunday, June 21, 2015

#15 - Those Winter Sundays - Robert Hayden


Dedicated to my Father, who sacrificed so much to provide for his family and make sure we could follow our own dreams. And who had to navigate taking care of two young motherless girls on his own for a year or two - Trials of how to clean a fresh ear piercing, how to answer our questions about our bodies, how to play dress up and paint nails, how to condition and brush knotted hair, all while waking up at 4 in the morning to commute into work at NASA in DC. No matter how tired he was or late he'd get home, he'd always have time to help us with our homework or to throw around a baseball. I have so much respect and love for this reserved man of faith that has taught me so many life lessons (and instilled in me a love for nature, taught me how to fish, raised me a tom-boy, and made sure I was raised to be thankful for everything I've been given!) Happy Father's Day! 


Those Winter Sundays

Robert Hayden

Sundays too my father got up early 
and put his clothes on in the blueblack cold,
then with cracked hands that ached 
from labor in the weekday weather made 
banked fires blaze. No one ever thanked him.
I’d wake and hear the cold splintering, breaking. 
When the rooms were warm, he’d call, 
and slowly I would rise and dress, 
fearing the chronic angers of that house, 

Speaking indifferently to him, 
who had driven out the cold 
and polished my good shoes as well. 
What did I know, what did I know 
of love’s austere and lonely offices? 

Monday, June 8, 2015

#14 - [Sometimes I don't know if I'm having a feeling] - Matthew Siegal

How I'm feeling today:


[Sometimes I don’t know if I’m having a feeling]
Matthew Siegal

Sometimes I don’t know if I’m having a feeling
so I check my phone or squint at the window
with a serious look, like someone in a movie
or a mother thinking about how time passes.
Sometimes I’m not sure how to feel so I think
about a lot of things until I get an allergy attack.
I take my antihistamine with beer, thank you very much,
sleep like a cut under a band aid, wake up
on the stairs having missed the entire party.
It was a real blast, I can tell, for all the vases
are broken, the flowers twisted into crowns
for the young, drunk, and beautiful. I put one on
and salute the moon, the lone face over me
shining through the grates on the front door window.
You have seen me like this before, such a strange
version of the person you thought you knew.
Guess what, I’m strange to us both. It’s like
I’m not even me sometimes. Who am I? A question
for the Lord only to decide as She looks over
my résumé. Everything is different sometimes.
Sometimes there is no hand on my shoulder
but my room, my apartment, my body are containers
and I am thusly contained. How easy to forget
the obvious. The walls, blankets, sunlight, your love.